Just another dreamer wanting to fly away from this place. Across the ocean to the stars and beyond! It's never goodbye cause as long as we're alive, we'll meet again someday. Thank you for being such an important part of my life.
Semi-detached perspective
Tonight, I went to the fair with a couple of ACM buddies, and I didn’t really think I would see this, but it was… somewhat comforting and somewhat painful. We had just ridden the Zipper and one of my friends was feeling really sick, so we all sat down on one of those metal cable protectors right in front of that ride… And I heard a girl in front of us say something about going in a direction in back of us, so my attention was drawn to her. And then I saw her interlock fingers with another figure. I looked at that person, and for a few seconds I tried to determine if it was a guy but I came to the conclusion that it was another girl… They ran off behind us shortly after.
When I saw that, I sort of “fake cried” (which was more like a sigh but not XD) so two of my friends noticed, and saw the girls, so they knew why. My girl-friend gave me a comforting hug, and my guy-friend hugged me a little tighter. He knows that I have a little crush on him, due to a game of Truth and Dare (minus the dare XD), so I notice he tends to sit by me and look at me. He has a girlfriend though so he’s off limits. Zannen da ne~ I really wouldn’t mind going out with him though… He always holds the door open for me, and lets me go ahead of him, etc. Typical knight-in-shining-armor stuff. Things that Maya didn’t do because we didn’t really have a defined male-female role in our relationship. But, since she’s (obviously XD) more masculine than I am, I kind of assumed she’d take the male role, so I’d get a little irritated when she wouldn’t sort of, “take care of me” in that sense.
But anyway, watching those two girls.. Such a simple act… It must’ve been no more than ten seconds that they were in front of me. A mere moment. They probably didn’t see us sitting there, right in front of them. It was, as Mrs. Messier would put it, an “aha!” moment. A blatant expression of love from two who have been forsaken by society (yes I’m being overly dramatic, but it’s true… kind of). Maya didn’t really like to hold my hand. She didn’t like being noticed, judged, and watched by others. I didn’t care. I never cared about stuff like that when it came to her. Love gave me the strength to ignore everyone’s judgement. I was happy because of Maya. I was proud of her, and I wanted to show her off. Watching those two girls tonight.. man.. They reached for each other’s hands like it was second nature. Without a doubt. It made me happy to see people like us, loving without caring about the opinions of others, but at the same time, it reminded me of us, and saddened me.
And the best part of all? They’ll never know how that single act affected me.
One day, I hope to get my chance so I can show her how much I’ve matured.
